Sydney's Heart (Part 2)

Dear me, you such a loser. You are the worst drunkard, the loser, and the stupidest man ever. You have no direction that you will be, where you will go. Your little world inside your heart is already full of darkness, hatred. Now, your world is darker, deeper, and more painful. Why didn’t you confess your feelings to Lucie? Now, Mr. Stryer wants to marry your love. And, you, stupid lawyer, still keep drinking. You already know wine is bad for you. You want to run away this truth. You are fear and coward. Sydney, you can keep drinking your wine, you can use it to make you fall into sleep easier, you can forget sadness when you are drinking. However, this is the time I need to focus on my feelings. Hey Sydney, be a man! I can’t run away anymore. Lucie Manette needs to know how much I love her, she need to learn that she is the most important person in my life. This time, Sydney, you are begging yourself to be stronger, be braver. No matter what, you need to tell your hidden feelings to Lucie. Perhaps she will know or at least, you confess your feelings. No more secrets. No matter how or what Lucie will say, you still need to accept it.