Sydney's Heart (Part 3)

It’s today. You know this day will come Sydney. This is the most painful to you life. This wedding will be full of happiness, except you. Again, you walked in to your little box. Hatred, lonely, and sadness, all of them are covering you. They are making your air harder to breathe in. They try to kill your weak heart. You knew this will be happened. Than, why are you still sad? How could I say that I’m so hate myself right now? But yes, I’m, or at least, Sydney Carton, you always hate your life. Your lie is full of darkness until Lucie’s smile appears. And now, she will marry a guy named Charles Darnay who looks exactly like you. My heart, my poor heart, hates everything right now. However, you still have to face with it, Sydney. You should go to the wedding, or at least, try to say something to congratulate them. My heart is breaking into a thousand pieces now. Where is the peaceful place that I can sleep in there, or at least try to heal this wound. Who will or can give you some peace right now? Where is peace in my heart? I want to sleep to pass today. Fear.